I'm Back!

Guess its time i enter something..... i thought bout coming here to do my blogging but just haven't had the desire to, not that i dont like to its just that i have been dealing with some depression and blah blah blah the usual stuff.
But now Im here and ready to get going... at least for now.
It has been since October that i was here last and i dont really have much to say. Our Christmas was pretty good, the kids got what they wanted and my Christmas was that they had a good one.... thats the important thing to me. Our New Years eve was so-so, nothing exciting..... and life goes on.
I have been enjoying the Yahoo chat rooms... you can meet lots of interesting new people ( and not so interesting). The fun thing bout it is you can chat and see the person whom you're chatting with so long as you have a web cam (which i have ). It's very intertaining....

Well i guess thats it for now..... i will try to come back a little more frequent.

LATER PEOPLE..........

It's been a long time (please ignore the previous title)

I have discovered something amazing... the chat rooms. Even though some people may think they are for disperate people... they arent you can meet alot of great people on there ..... and maybe a few not so great people, i have made alot of friends and I spend alot of time there.



There are alot of themes for themed rooms and u can go into either one of them.

Well, thats where I have been most of the time, and if you were wondering what chat room it is it is called Yahoo chat, yo should try it out sometime

I't been a long

Try this out (i hope this works)

Your soul is bound to the First Totem, Ares:
The Dove.
Ares appears as a pearl dove. She embodies
love, peace, balance, and devotion. She
is associated with the color pearl, the season
of transition, and the element of love. Her
downfall is idolization.
You are most compatible with Wolves and White
Stags.

Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You?
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What to do

I was at an office today where alot of different people go to (the Health and Welfare office). Well I was just sitting down waiting for my name to be called and then a woman comes out from somewhere and sits next to me and she is crying for I dont know what reason and then she starts talking not knowing if she is talking in her phone or if she has some problems... in the mean time I am looking around the room wondering if anybody else is looking and wondering about this poor woman, I thought she was talking to some imaginary person or something, but she was looking at a woman right across the way from her looking straight at her and saying all these things to her as if she was actually listening. Then she started talking to me and I wasnt sure what to do and I asked her who she was talking to and she pointed out the woman she was talking about. Then the woman started to recognize her and came towards her and said she didnt recognize her because her appearance had changed. They started crying and hugging and the young woman appologized for her past behavior ect. ect., it was the most bizarre experience I had ever gone through... and hope to never go through again. And as I walked out to the outdoors I noticed a police car in the front... I thought this day is getting more bizarre. Anyway, I honestly didnt know what to do with older woman that was crying... she even took some medication, I want sure if she had mental problems or what. But then she was called back and that was the end of that. Then the young girls fiance was concerned, because I heard him say it made her stressed to talk to the older woman.

I'm gabbing again, I hope I made some kinda sense in what I said. I just basically told it as I remember it.

SO VERY SAD

I HAD A VERY SAD AND EMOTIONAL DAY TODAY (THURS.). I DON'T KNOW WHAT SET IT OFF, BUT I FELT VERY DEPRESSED AND LONELY LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME OR EVEN CARES. I LAID DOWN IN MY BED WITH THE COVERS OVER MY HEAD TRYING TO ESCAPE FROM IT ALL, BUT IT DIDN'T WORK. I HAD NEVER FELT THIS DEPRESSED EVER THAT I CAN REMEMBER AND THAT KINDA WORRIED ME. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL MY HUSBAND, I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED AND VALUED LIKE I AM SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL. AND BE ACCEPTED FOR WHO I AM NO MATTER HOW HOW FLAWED I AM, AND I AM FLAWED I JUST WISH I CAN CORRECT IT.

I KNOW I MAY NOT MAKE ANY SENSE, BUT THIS WHOLE DAY DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE.

One Step Closer

I am one step closer to going back to college. I opened my e-mail this afternoon and noticed a message with an attachment.... the first thing I thought of was VIRUS... but I took a chance (gasp!) and opened the message (not the attachment...yet) and noticed who it was from, the college that could change my life for the better. I am going to try to get my Medical Transciptioning Certificate and am going to do it online. I can get this done in 9 months (I hope) and I can do this work from the comforts of my home while the kids are at school and even when I travel.

I just hope I'm smart enough to do this... because my college history isn't all that impressive because I do have a learning problem and I believe it is holding me back from my full potential of learning ANYTHING. But I need to at least try. The only problem is it does cost money and that scares me... I'm just worried that I will not do the courses justice, but you won't know until you try..... right?

So I am going to go through all the applications and see if the college will even accept me and then I need to hopefully find out if I can even get financial aid. So I guess I'm going to go through with it.... which is what I want.....

Wish me luck, I'm sure going to need it.

My Hair

Yes this is about my hair... well I did something to it that I haven't done to it in a long time. I colored my hair.... red, it actaully looks pretty good and my husband seems to like it. I hope is stays red for a while. My husband is surprised that I wasn't born a red head because I do have fair skin and I have green eyes, but sometimes we need to do some changes to the way we think they ought to be (if that makes any sense). Well my hair looks good and I think I will try to keep it this color.